Mixed Emotions

Well, it has been quite some time since I have written. I started this particular post a little over a week ago but never finished it to post. Now I am just 2 days away from the birth of our little girl! We are thrilled and very excited to meet her in person and for Abi to become a big sister. Yes, she did indeed hold out for our scheduled date. She just wanted to hang out very low for the last few weeks!

During the past week and a half or so we have been mourning the loss of my sister-in-law’s baby (she miscarried at the end of her first trimester). My heart breaks for her, her husband and their 3 boys. If you think of the, please continue to keep them in your prayers. It takes a long time to heal emotionally from this kind of loss. It is amazing to me how you can become so attached and love someone so much even when they are so little, still developing and oh so tine. However, having gone through it 2 times myself, I know it is so true. There is nothing like the emotional attachment to new life, no matter how small that life is. It is a beautiful and miraculous thing and what a blessing to be able to experience it, even if it just for a short period of time. I am convinced there is purpose in everything. It doesn’t make these times any easier, but I pray that we will one day understand the purpose for these short lives – that there will be a legacy with them.

This brings me to another story I have recently been reading. It is the story of Audrey Caroline, daughter of Angie, a woman whom I have never met. You can read more of their journey by clicking on the link on the side of my page. Audrey Caroline was brought into the world on April 7 via c-section, not knowing whether she would ever breathe life here on earth. The Lord blessed the family with a couple of hours with her before He took her home. To read her sweet stories and see how little Audrey Caroline has already left a legacy makes you reflect on how precious life really is. How short it is. How much we can do in such a short period of time. To really reflect on how we can make the most of every moment and every opportunity that we have here on earth. I stand here writing, feeling like I have wasted so much time. Yet I am not sure where to start. I guess to start with my family is a good place.

So with all of this said, I now leave you to go make final preparations for this new life we will bring into the world in 2 days. I will post after I get home and update you on how everything went and post a coupe of pictures for you. And during these next few days I hope to take some time to reflect on what is important in life and how I can teach my girls the same things along with living it myself. How I can raise them to live a life of legacy? And I leave you with these thoughts:

What will be your legacy? How will you chose to live your life? What will people learn from you? What, or rather how will they remember you?